Failure? Fearlure?
I’m studying for the Math HL re-exam tomorrow. I’m not sure why I’m doing that, and what I’m trying to do.
If I manage to scrape a pass, then I’ll get to keep my subject combi through next year. But I know that it’s going to be one hell of a year.. after all, my sec 3 A Math ‘foundations’ (pah) are practically non-existent. Okay, so they’re really non-existent. And if I obviously can’t even get this year’s stuff down pat then when calculus and statistics rear their collective heads next year? Oh dear me.
But.. if I fail and get that call in early December, it’s gonna be a world of hurt from then on. Dropping to Math SL, shifting Econs (let it not be English A1 please) to HL, and all the IAs that involves.. and all those annoying bits that come with having been irreversible branded a failure.
The difference is the ramping of intensity and when it starts, eh? Much as I’d like to say I have no bloody idea which one I want, I think I do want the former. If only because December will be that little bit less painful than it already will be. Not that I’d be ‘wisely’ using my time to understand everything, hmm..
Will I be strong enough to conquer all that shit that’s been piling up since sec 3? Experience says no, but.. let’s leave it to God. I have to remember my calculator though..
